This post is kinda hard for me to write I don't really know why it bothers me so much but it really does. I hate to admit I hurt all the time. I guess its kinda like when people ask ``How are you`` and everyone always says oh fine. I do too and maybe because most people are just being polite when they ask, they don't want to hear bad stuff.
I never really thought of it much until a couple weeks ago a friend says to me (after hanging around all day) soooo how much pain are you really in. Well I didn't even know what to say. I don't complain much cause its just always there and so its just kinda normal to me and I don't think about it.
But when I told her my knee always hurts, has since high school. I sprained it and even though the doctors now say that has nothing to do with it, I kinda wonder. It does have a diagnosis of femoral patella syndrome, which as far as I can understand my kneecap is not straight. I went to physio for a while and it kinda helped and she gave me a bunch of exersizes to do and mostly said it will never go away.
And then my hip, which she knew about. And is really not my hip, its where my pelvis joins my spine. Sacro-illiac joint I think. And the ligaments there are too loose so they don't hold the joint right and it slips a little. I got explained its like holding your fists knuckles together and move one joint out. Like peaks and valleys and they just move. I go to the chiropractor regularly and he fixes it, but again no real cure until I get old and they stiffen up and then I probly wont be able to bend over. Nothing I can do makes them stay or move, sometimes I just sit down and feel it. But now I know what it feels like in and when its out and so I can go get it fixed sooner. Which I think helps the muscles retain memory of how it should be.
And now I got a pair of back on track long johns I have been wearing for the last couple days, I don't notice in super improvement, but I think it is just increased blood flow which should help inflammation and the long johns should get both my knee and hip so I am testing them out.
And my back. Mostly my upper back and right where the back and neck join. Nothing spectacular wrong there, just sore and I guess from x-rays I have a really straight back and not very much the s - curve so it makes it worse. That I go to the chiro and also a massage therapy guy works on me. I just try to keep it half decent. But since I have gotten a different pillow it is much improved.
Mostly that is all. I sometimes wonder if I am falling apart or if I am just getting old and not admitting it. Either that or I have something else serious going on, but I don't know what I can do about that. But I guess I will just keep moving on and trying to find better ways to deal with this pain.